The awakening.

The spiritual awakening, that nobody talks about it.

For centuries people have been waking up to the failures in the system, the injustices in the world, yet when people speak up, they are often villainized as witches or more recently sectioned and labelled "psychotic".

Spiritual awakenings comes in waves, in all different modes and madnesess - Yes i said madnesess, because often that's a word i could describe it as.

For me, it appeared to happen over night, during the VERY early days of motherhood.

I just seemed to wake up one day hating the world and all of the people in it, for lying to me. The truths about the education system, medical system, capitalism, holidays (Christmas), medications, songs, advertisements, alcohol *devils water - ALL OF IT all now seemed to have a hidden agenda.

As the depression hit deeper, so did the anger, the frustration, the agitation. Why couldn't the world be simple? I wont go too deep into the depression but all i will say is that i hit the lowest point of my entire life - and I've been deep in the tunnel many times before but this time i really started to fear and knew that for my daughters sake - i had to get out and if i wanted to save her from my trauma - i had to do it fast!!!

Then the healing journey began, the shedding of old pain, the trauma trapped within the body, i began to learn about resetting the nervous system, the power in chakra alignment and without hesitation the knowledge and the healing unfolded - not smoothly but like a volcano erupting from an unknown planet.

It was like a wave had come over and i couldn't stop - i wanted to know EVERYTHING, i wanted to heal every inch of myself for myself and my family and that's exactly what i did.

In ceremonies id experience out of body experiences, feel the pain pouring out of my body, i did so much healing in a short space of time that my body went into panic and i wondered why i felt heavier. My body didn't understand this unfamiliar feeling and i became confused and even angrier. Then the plant medicine journey began - it was an experience that changed my life in 2016 and i knew i had to return to shed more toxic chemicals and purge what id lost because that's the truth of it - traumas are a apart of you and they need to be witnessed, acknowledged and passed compassionately.

Within days of my experience with the grandmother medicine i began to purge my own fears, traumas and pain. I watched my demons arrive and disappear before my very eyes, i weaped, purged, vocalised and shredded years of pain within minutes, with my drum or through movement and voice activations. This was when my healings became really powerful and my days began to brighten.